I have memories of you before you were even born. Maybe that s<br > normal for mothers but I doubt big sisters feel that way too of-<br > ten. I just remember sitting around the kitchen table with Morn<br > and Emily (who was barely four at the time) arguing about what<br > your name was going to be and how that somehow made you<br > into a real person before I ever saw your face. Morn asked Em<br > and me for help because she felt like she had this power with<br > names she had to be careful with. Her middle name is %ss and<br > that s what she named me when she had me at only nineteen--<br > "With big hair and big dreams" she says--and I think some-<br > times she s afraid that s why I m turning out the way I am， so<br > much like she was when she married my real Dad instead of how<br > she is now with David.<br > 1 was five when Morn and David got married， seven when<br > Morn finally got pregnant with Emily， and even I could see that<br >L ~ae was becoming a different person， like a real grown-up. She<br > never loo~ed glamorous anymorenjust pretty. She stopped<br >